i can't wait to meet you, elena lyriana aizella. each day that i feel you tumbling and moving around in my belly makes me all the more excited to finally hug you and cuddle you in person. :)

we just have a few short weeks together now... approximately 6weeks and 1 day, given how old you are and if you stick to the doctor's estimate on when you'll be born... :)

when that day comes, i can honestly say that i'll be holding my world in my arms.

dreams

i've already had a lot of dreams about lyra... from simple dreams like dreaming about a smiling chubby little girl that was seated on my tummy and we were playing (this i dreamt months and months before we found out that the lil bumper is a baby girl)... to the weirdest dream to date... about how she turned into a krispy kreme donut and i accidentally left her (1 donut in a krispy kreme box) on the seat of a bus and when i got her back, someone took a bite out of donut-her already [i ended up staying away from krispy kreme donuts for months after THAT dream]... to a really sad dream about how i was watching someone that i loved make love to someone else... and having a little girl holding my hand and she was asking me, "what's **** doing?" and i answered, "he's saying goodbye." ... =/

just last night, i dreamt that i was about to give birth...

it wasn't a scary labor type dream wherein the mom is typically depicted as yelling her lungs out... what i can remember is that i was in bed and in the dream i think my water bag broke and i simply knew that i was going to give birth already. and thinking about it, what struck me was that the dream-me was very calm.

well, i hope when that time comes, ideally approximately 6 weeks from now, i'd be calm and not go nuts. :)

too much

there's simply too much... STUFF... argh!

it's not that i'm complaining... it's simply that... there is simply too much baby stuff just everywhere... how do you differentiate between what a baby really needs and just all the 'extras'??

obviously, i'm new to this... and nothing in my 29yrs of existence has prepared me enough to know the baby needs and simply disregard the 'baby extras'.

mumsy's been getting stuff for lyra, a lil bit of this and a lil bit of that... almost every day... and yes, i'm very grateful and thankful... coz it means that lyra's savings will be going to things like the hospital bills and her medical stuff like vaccines...

she pretty much already has everything that she needs when i finally pop and give birth to her... well... i guess, she needs a lot more nappies... coz i read somewhere about how newborns go thru 10-12 diapers in a day (yes... boggles the mind, doesn't it? such lil bodies churning out that much hehe!)

i dunno... i guess i just don't want her growing up with too much stuff. there. i said it. not too much. it's hard to learn to appreciate what you have when there is a surplus of material things.

granted, most of her extras come for gail like clothes and shoes and crib toys... but seriously... she already has at least 5 dozen cloth diapers... urm... yes, i'm confused... how many cloth diapers does a baby really need?? will she end up chewing them?? (maybe that's why babies go thru 10-12 nappies a day - them cloth diapers look like it'll be tough to digest... haha!)

or maybe this mumster is simply going out of her mind thinking of how to organize the lil one's stuff... hence the ranting... hahaha!